We're good friends and fairly non-casual bang buddies now, but for her that's all it ever was and all it'll ever be. She's amazing enough that it's worth the pain, whenever it eventually comes.
Second there was Sarah, poor lost Sarah. She was so sweet, too sweet for this world. She took her own life after the system failed her. She was raped and no one could or would help. The guy got off and ran. She gave in to despair. Years later I still feel like I failed her.
Third their was Gabriella a childhood friend. I stepped aside. She's happily married and had her first child.
Fouth their is Courtney the one who saved my sanity. She doesn't know how much I love her. I won't tell her. She is happy and making her own way in the world. I do not regret anything with her. We still speak often. Her boyfriend is a good man and I wish them the best.
I've not had much luck with women but these are the four that lay in my heart.
Yup. It's frustrating. I actually struggle watching Matt Mc. movies because he reminds me soooo much of my ex. I have to stop myself from thinking about how cute he is, and how awesome.... and just accept that we were never meant to be together, or at least not in this time.
I used to have an ex like that, we were engaged and I really struggled with getting over him. It wasn't until I saw him with his "now" wife that I truly realized why he and I never worked out. I can't help but feel pure joy for him that he found someone who is better suited for him and they have a family together now. I am also glad that we never went through with the wedding because in the end, he was not my "one that got away."
Yeah, maybe there's not enough distance. It's also possible both of us had bad timing. I don't know anymore. I just don't talk to him, or facebook stalk him, or whatever. I know I'll find happiness with someone else, so it's not that big of a deal. It's mostly that I have to see him sometimes at my church, and it also stings, just a smidge.
Thanks bro (broette)! I must say, it's really nice feeling relaxed about having an online discussion. Over at that other site, any time you post, there's always some trepidation. Even though most people only read the top level responses, there's always the reality that someone might latch on and start picking on you, and then downvoting your comments to oblivion. So this was nice. It almost feels like I'm in recovery, lol.
She was from out of the region. I met her through our mutual friend. It instantly clicked, and we had only 4 days before she had to go back. I slept 2 hours per day, in the early morning, and worked all day waiting to be with her in the evening till dawn. When it was time for her to go, my heart felt broken and destroyed. A little while later, I learned that our mutual friend was talking behind my back and trash talking me. The girl never let me explain, and stopped all communication. These 4 days where the most beautiful time I ever had in my life. I'm holding on to the memories, that's all I have left of her.
Melissa was the one for me, even after we ended things we did keep in touch. I am sure if I didn't travel at that time we could have got back together again.
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Emma Watson.
We're good friends and fairly non-casual bang buddies now, but for her that's all it ever was and all it'll ever be. She's amazing enough that it's worth the pain, whenever it eventually comes.
I wish I were so lucky, mine doesn't even speak to me
Yeah, we went through that a couple times. :P
wish I wasn't going through it :P :)
Sorry you're having a rough time. I know it's not much consolation, but it'll get better, one way or another. :)
thanks :)
too much regret here for only one...
First there was Minh, A Japanese girl with a Vietnamese name. My first love. What happened? I was an idiot. It's so cliché I took her for granted and lost her. I was a stupid kid.
Second there was Sarah, poor lost Sarah. She was so sweet, too sweet for this world. She took her own life after the system failed her. She was raped and no one could or would help. The guy got off and ran. She gave in to despair. Years later I still feel like I failed her.
Third their was Gabriella a childhood friend. I stepped aside. She's happily married and had her first child.
Fouth their is Courtney the one who saved my sanity. She doesn't know how much I love her. I won't tell her. She is happy and making her own way in the world. I do not regret anything with her. We still speak often. Her boyfriend is a good man and I wish them the best.
I've not had much luck with women but these are the four that lay in my heart.
He looks like a younger Matthew McConaghay (sp?). He was my first love. He's married now.
sounds cute, did he have the accent too?
Yup. It's frustrating. I actually struggle watching Matt Mc. movies because he reminds me soooo much of my ex. I have to stop myself from thinking about how cute he is, and how awesome.... and just accept that we were never meant to be together, or at least not in this time.
I used to have an ex like that, we were engaged and I really struggled with getting over him. It wasn't until I saw him with his "now" wife that I truly realized why he and I never worked out. I can't help but feel pure joy for him that he found someone who is better suited for him and they have a family together now. I am also glad that we never went through with the wedding because in the end, he was not my "one that got away."
Yeah, maybe there's not enough distance. It's also possible both of us had bad timing. I don't know anymore. I just don't talk to him, or facebook stalk him, or whatever. I know I'll find happiness with someone else, so it's not that big of a deal. It's mostly that I have to see him sometimes at my church, and it also stings, just a smidge.
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Thanks bro (broette)! I must say, it's really nice feeling relaxed about having an online discussion. Over at that other site, any time you post, there's always some trepidation. Even though most people only read the top level responses, there's always the reality that someone might latch on and start picking on you, and then downvoting your comments to oblivion. So this was nice. It almost feels like I'm in recovery, lol.
this broette is happy to be of service and I hope we can keep this site as positive as possible. :)
She was from out of the region. I met her through our mutual friend. It instantly clicked, and we had only 4 days before she had to go back. I slept 2 hours per day, in the early morning, and worked all day waiting to be with her in the evening till dawn. When it was time for her to go, my heart felt broken and destroyed. A little while later, I learned that our mutual friend was talking behind my back and trash talking me. The girl never let me explain, and stopped all communication. These 4 days where the most beautiful time I ever had in my life. I'm holding on to the memories, that's all I have left of her.
What a crap friend. Was he/she jealous?
Maybe. I tried talking to her about it, but nothing came out of it.
Melissa was the one for me, even after we ended things we did keep in touch. I am sure if I didn't travel at that time we could have got back together again.
it's never too late.