I have lots of bad nightmares. One that really stuck had me in my living room with things approaching outside. They could go through walls and didn't seem to have matter to their form, but they were certainly visible - undulating patches of light and shadow, spindly, vaguely human form, and so on. I knew if they got me I'd turn into one of them, so as they approached I had to choose to shoot myself with the gun I had in my hand. I didn't want to - I was scared of dying, but I put the gun in my mouth and shot myself through the brain stem. Somehow even though I was dead, I could still think (maybe the last few seconds before my brain gave out) and I can still recall the way my mouth tasted metallic and smoky, little flecks of burnt flesh from the back of throat coating the back of my teeth. I couldn't get my eyes to close, so I could see the spindly, shadowy figures just stop moving. The strangest part was laying there without my chest moving at all - it seemed endless, but I woke up, of course.
I have lots of bad nightmares. One that really stuck had me in my living room with things approaching outside. They could go through walls and didn't seem to have matter to their form, but they were certainly visible - undulating patches of light and shadow, spindly, vaguely human form, and so on. I knew if they got me I'd turn into one of them, so as they approached I had to choose to shoot myself with the gun I had in my hand. I didn't want to - I was scared of dying, but I put the gun in my mouth and shot myself through the brain stem. Somehow even though I was dead, I could still think (maybe the last few seconds before my brain gave out) and I can still recall the way my mouth tasted metallic and smoky, little flecks of burnt flesh from the back of throat coating the back of my teeth. I couldn't get my eyes to close, so I could see the spindly, shadowy figures just stop moving. The strangest part was laying there without my chest moving at all - it seemed endless, but I woke up, of course.