I'm afraid of suffering, I'm afraid of people around me suffering, but I'm not afraid of death itself. I won't run to it and don't with it to happen yet as I'm not ready to die and shouldn't have to, but if it happens, it happens. I just don't want to live through hell before I do. As for death itself, I just think those synapses stop transmitting, and you stop "being". You were, you're not anymore, that's pretty much what it is to me. I don't believe in life after death.