Maybe it's because the demand of pleasing and putting on the show that you do, is getting to you, and you are realizing the truth that it's all just a smokescreen: A fabricated reality that you have created and the cognitive dissonance you are facing is causing you to be depressed because your life has become unreal.
Do you suppose that this might be why so many celebrities are jacked up on drugs and engage in licentious behaviour? Do you suppose that the reality of celebrity is based on a supposition that your "fans" assume they know you, but in reality only know the image that you are, and in fact your image, your youtube 'personae' is just the masquerade you put on?
Maybe it's because the demand of pleasing and putting on the show that you do, is getting to you, and you are realizing the truth that it's all just a smokescreen: A fabricated reality that you have created and the cognitive dissonance you are facing is causing you to be depressed because your life has become unreal.
Do you suppose that this might be why so many celebrities are jacked up on drugs and engage in licentious behaviour? Do you suppose that the reality of celebrity is based on a supposition that your "fans" assume they know you, but in reality only know the image that you are, and in fact your image, your youtube 'personae' is just the masquerade you put on?