Because it's getting harder and harder for me to think about the protection of White people's feelings when White people don't seem to care at all about the loss of so many Black lives.

I care, but to an outside observer it may seem like I don't because ultimately what the heck am I supposed to do.

I think we need to raise the minimum wage, I think we need a carbon tax, I think we need to strengthen the EPA, I think we need more affirmative action, I think reparations are a good idea, I think we need universal healthcare. But nobody cares what I think, because I'm not rich. I am powerless to effect change here. I fully support racial equality, but I don't understand what the black community expects me to do.

edit: I added a link to this post of an interview with Ta-Nehisi Coates, a writer a like a lot, but even he basically can't answer this question. His quote:

(Interviewer) What do you say to people who want to be activists? What should I, say—an educated white guy who thinks there is too much racism—do to make change?

(Coates) Every person has to answer it for themselves. I could say, “go register voters” but you may not like doing that.